A heart of gold and a heart of passion.

"All I want out of life is to enjoy it."
All you need to know is that I'm an adult, and I rarely know what I'm talking about.

I’ve written many notes and letters to many girlfriends, but there’s only one letter that matters, and it’s still sitting in my wallet. It’s made a home in that corner crease. There’s only one girl that matters, and she’s even farther on the other side of the country. I’ve held onto this thing for almost 9 months. I haven’t read it since October. All I can think right now is

“This thing is getting so worn. It wouldn’t be the same if I rewrote it, though. I’m not even sure I want to reread it. There’s way too much emotion penned down.”

My dad was in for 8 years, left at the rank or PO2 (Petty Officer 2nd Class). I’m looking to be that lucky, or make it to PO1 (Petty Officer 1st Class) before I exit. I’d be so lucky to be promoted early, like he was.

Sure, I was drunk when I said it, but that doesn’t negate the fact that it’s true. Truth is, there’s no one that’s been on my mind as much as she has for as long as she has. This time last year, I believe, was when I told her that “I think I’m falling in love with her” or that I was falling in love with her. Nothing about that has changed. A year and a half later, and she’s still very strong in my head, and year later and she’s still very strong in my heart. If she does, in fact, want us back, certain things need to be done. I mean, I want us back, I want her back. I just need to know what’s going on.

Sure, I was drunk when I said it, but that doesn’t negate the fact that it’s true. Truth is, there’s no one that’s been on my mind as much as she has for as long as she has. This time last year, I believe, was when I told her that “I think I’m falling in love with her” or that I was falling in love with her. Nothing about that has changed. A year and a half later, and she’s still very strong in my head, and year later and she’s still very strong in my heart.

If she does, in fact, want us back, certain things need to be done. I mean, I want us back, I want her back. I just need to know what’s going on.